Wow... these last few months have absolutely flown by. Its like I fell asleep and when I woke up, three months had past! Im sure you wonder what I have been up to....
A whole lota living! That is what I have been up to, and im really proud of myself for it. Its taken me some time to be able to say that, but I am now.
Things have been beyond hard. I am still broke, but no longer sleeping on the floor. lol This journey has shown me how truely blessed I am to have such dedicated and caring family and friends. If it werent for them, I would be a mess.
We had Car's 4th birthday party last month. I cant believe my little girl is growing up so fast!! I cant take it!! lol She had a blast bowling with family and friends. She got tons of barbie movies, a baby princess bell doll, and a new pair for twinkle toes. It was all fun untill she fell on a ballon and it popped. That scared the tears out of her.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
They all say it will get better....
They better be right!
Its been a rough month to say the least.
It started the week before mothers day. Greg and I had been together for just over a year. Things were going well till he asked one little question. "What do you think about getting married?" he asked one day while sitting at the table in our favorite Chinese food restaurant. Without even thinking, I answered "why do you want to marry me?" All the man could come up with was "you would make a good wife" As he tried to convince me that it was a great idea, all I could think of was 10 years in to the future with him. I saw me being bored out of my mind and surrounded by computers and ninja gear. I saw our closets full of MRE's and ammo. I pictured us in debt and still stuck in an apartment. It was terrible!!! I knew I had to leave that day. I told him I would never get married that afternoon. He didn't talk to me for 5 days. I already had one foot out the door.
Saturday June 4th I went with mom to look for an apartment. I cant remember ever being more frustrated in my life. Every apartment we looked at was too expensive and wouldn't be ready any time soon. I thought I was going to pull my hair out. It took me three days to finally find a place to stay that worked for me and car. Its an old one bedroom apartment with a really neat view of the green belt off the balcony. (12118 Walnut Park Crossing Apt 422) My own place! It only took my 26 years to get my own place. No ones dishes to do but mine and cars. No one elses laundry to wash. The house will be the exact way I leave it every day. It feels good. I have to find out where to get the 660 dollars rent next month. Oh and the 220 dollar deposit for electricity. And don't forget the 100 deposit for gas. (this is all after the almost 700 dollars I had to spend just to get the place)
I'm sleeping on the floor for now, and I am eating off plastic plates. I have no microwave and I'm broke, but it will get better. At least that's what they all say!
Its been a rough month to say the least.
It started the week before mothers day. Greg and I had been together for just over a year. Things were going well till he asked one little question. "What do you think about getting married?" he asked one day while sitting at the table in our favorite Chinese food restaurant. Without even thinking, I answered "why do you want to marry me?" All the man could come up with was "you would make a good wife" As he tried to convince me that it was a great idea, all I could think of was 10 years in to the future with him. I saw me being bored out of my mind and surrounded by computers and ninja gear. I saw our closets full of MRE's and ammo. I pictured us in debt and still stuck in an apartment. It was terrible!!! I knew I had to leave that day. I told him I would never get married that afternoon. He didn't talk to me for 5 days. I already had one foot out the door.
Saturday June 4th I went with mom to look for an apartment. I cant remember ever being more frustrated in my life. Every apartment we looked at was too expensive and wouldn't be ready any time soon. I thought I was going to pull my hair out. It took me three days to finally find a place to stay that worked for me and car. Its an old one bedroom apartment with a really neat view of the green belt off the balcony. (12118 Walnut Park Crossing Apt 422) My own place! It only took my 26 years to get my own place. No ones dishes to do but mine and cars. No one elses laundry to wash. The house will be the exact way I leave it every day. It feels good. I have to find out where to get the 660 dollars rent next month. Oh and the 220 dollar deposit for electricity. And don't forget the 100 deposit for gas. (this is all after the almost 700 dollars I had to spend just to get the place)
I'm sleeping on the floor for now, and I am eating off plastic plates. I have no microwave and I'm broke, but it will get better. At least that's what they all say!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
First check in while on vacation in Missouri
Wow is this place amazing! We are staying at greg's uncles house for the week. The place is huge and I love every inch of this place. It has four rooms, an office, a work out room, two living rooms, and a really neat kitchen with the range in the middle. Car and I are staying in the basement, which works out great. Its like we have a whole house to our selves in the morning. The basement is a walk out, so we were able to walk out in the backyard which has some of the tallest trees I have ever seen! lol I know im a dork.
Anyway... today greg, janet, and I took car to this amazing park here in monett. It had a bunch of different little play areas and a huge sand box. The park also had a pond with with a gander of geese and a big fountain. (i like the word gander lol)
On the way home we passed this place that had a sign that read "Movie rentals / low cost tobacco / tanning beds " Talk about a one stop shop!! lol It cracked me up. This town is so back woods country... I love it! Plus I feel really skinny being around most women in this place. ha
Other than that, we just took it easy today. Gregs uncle and aunt still have to work today and tomorrow, so wed is when the real fun starts. That is the day we are planning on going to silver dollar city. Cant wait for that!! Well, we are about to leave for dinner. I think we are going to some kind of Chinese buffet place that is supposed to be amazing.
Anyway... today greg, janet, and I took car to this amazing park here in monett. It had a bunch of different little play areas and a huge sand box. The park also had a pond with with a gander of geese and a big fountain. (i like the word gander lol)
On the way home we passed this place that had a sign that read "Movie rentals / low cost tobacco / tanning beds " Talk about a one stop shop!! lol It cracked me up. This town is so back woods country... I love it! Plus I feel really skinny being around most women in this place. ha
Other than that, we just took it easy today. Gregs uncle and aunt still have to work today and tomorrow, so wed is when the real fun starts. That is the day we are planning on going to silver dollar city. Cant wait for that!! Well, we are about to leave for dinner. I think we are going to some kind of Chinese buffet place that is supposed to be amazing.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Adding instead of taking away.....
So I have decided that its time to get healthy again. I say that all the time, but I think im going to go about it a different way this round.
Every time I decide that I want to lose weight, I start removing things from my life. I remove all the good food I like. I remove going out to eat with friends. I even try to remove smoking cigarettes. In the end, all these things lead to my failure to stick to a plan. I cant keep taking things that I love away and thinking its going to be ok. Its like taking a security blanket from a child. I have to do this slowly so that it lasts.
This time im going to try add things to my life. Im sure it sounds kinda silly, but at this point, anything is worth a shot. I started today by adding a piece of toast with peanut butter to my breakfast. (since I dont normally eat anything in the morning) Next is to add two bottles of water to my day. These are just two of the small steps I am going to take to start my journey to a better me.
Change is coming... I can feel it.
Every time I decide that I want to lose weight, I start removing things from my life. I remove all the good food I like. I remove going out to eat with friends. I even try to remove smoking cigarettes. In the end, all these things lead to my failure to stick to a plan. I cant keep taking things that I love away and thinking its going to be ok. Its like taking a security blanket from a child. I have to do this slowly so that it lasts.
This time im going to try add things to my life. Im sure it sounds kinda silly, but at this point, anything is worth a shot. I started today by adding a piece of toast with peanut butter to my breakfast. (since I dont normally eat anything in the morning) Next is to add two bottles of water to my day. These are just two of the small steps I am going to take to start my journey to a better me.
Change is coming... I can feel it.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I will miss you Megan....
My father always told me "The only unconditional love you will ever truly know, will be the love of your child, and the love of your dog" On this day, I know that is so true.
I remember going with JJ and Kaitlyn to go pick Megan out from a huge litter of spunky yellow lab puppies. When we walked out on the back porch, all the pups ran and hid under a hot tub in the yard. Only one little fuzzball remained on the porch. There she was, laying across a bowl of dog food about the same size as her whole body. When we saw her face, we knew she was the perfect pup for dad. From the moment I saw dad pick that chunky little puppy up, I knew that love at first sight did exist. While Megan left us today, that love will always stay.
Today my father said good bye to his Megan.
I remember going with JJ and Kaitlyn to go pick Megan out from a huge litter of spunky yellow lab puppies. When we walked out on the back porch, all the pups ran and hid under a hot tub in the yard. Only one little fuzzball remained on the porch. There she was, laying across a bowl of dog food about the same size as her whole body. When we saw her face, we knew she was the perfect pup for dad. From the moment I saw dad pick that chunky little puppy up, I knew that love at first sight did exist. While Megan left us today, that love will always stay.
Today my father said good bye to his Megan.
Friday, March 4, 2011
The bitter sweet end of my series
I finished the last book in a five book series today. The set it called the Fever series by Karin Marie Moning. The story was amazing! I was so obsessed with this series that I honestly didnt want it to end. It has taken me two days to force myself to read the last two chapters. I felt like if I didnt read it, then it would always be there for me.
The characters in the book were so intense and full of secrets that after finishing the book I felt like the characters were some of my best friends. Barrons is strong, mysterious, and gorgeous. (the man is every woman's dream) Then you have Mac. She is young and full of pain and hurt when she starts her story. When reading how she got to Dublin my heart ached for her. She was so strong and didn't even know it. It is really rare for me to have that kind of connection to a story, but Karin sucked me into this series quick.
Its hard to describe the story line because of the many surprises and turns the book takes. (with out giving away the whole story) It starts out with Mackayla Lane, a young woman who's world is torn apart at the news of her only sister being murdered while attending school abroad in Dublin . Mac travels across the world alone to track down her sisters murderer, when she is sucked into a world full of magic and mayhem that she couldn't have imagined in her wildest dreams. Along her journey to avenge her sister, Mac meets the amazing guys and the worst guys. She learns of a world is full of demons and monsters, as well as a covenant of women who are gifted to fight those demons to the death. Mac quickly finds that every one has dark secrets, including herself.
Warning: This series is considered a romance and has some very graphic adult scenes in it. The book also contains very gory scenes that may not be for every one.
The characters in the book were so intense and full of secrets that after finishing the book I felt like the characters were some of my best friends. Barrons is strong, mysterious, and gorgeous. (the man is every woman's dream) Then you have Mac. She is young and full of pain and hurt when she starts her story. When reading how she got to Dublin my heart ached for her. She was so strong and didn't even know it. It is really rare for me to have that kind of connection to a story, but Karin sucked me into this series quick.
Its hard to describe the story line because of the many surprises and turns the book takes. (with out giving away the whole story) It starts out with Mackayla Lane, a young woman who's world is torn apart at the news of her only sister being murdered while attending school abroad in Dublin . Mac travels across the world alone to track down her sisters murderer, when she is sucked into a world full of magic and mayhem that she couldn't have imagined in her wildest dreams. Along her journey to avenge her sister, Mac meets the amazing guys and the worst guys. She learns of a world is full of demons and monsters, as well as a covenant of women who are gifted to fight those demons to the death. Mac quickly finds that every one has dark secrets, including herself.
Warning: This series is considered a romance and has some very graphic adult scenes in it. The book also contains very gory scenes that may not be for every one.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
A surprise this morning.
As usual, I woke up this morning to the sound of my alarm going off on my bedside table. As usual, I hit the snooze button once and rolled back over to my pillow to catch a few more minutes of what seemed like a good dream. As usual, my alarm went off again. (That alarm is ruthless. Some day I just wish it would not go off. But then there would be the whole not getting to work problem. You just cant win.) As I roll over to hit the snooze button again, I hear a not so usual sound coming from the floor next to the bed. I leaned over to find the cutest surprise I could think of. There on the ground, curled up tight to fit her whole body on a pillow, was my little princess. I couldn't help but smile. What a cute way to wake up! She surprised me this morning and doesn't even know she did. I am so blessed!
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